Alam ko, walang ka-connect connect ang picture na ito sa blag ko tanayt but keber na, yan ang latest ko eh. As in fresh 5 hours ago.

I know, lahat naman nagdadaan sa “world emotera day” kaso minsan, masyado nakong ginugulo nitong special day na ito na parang nagiging 4-month long celebration na. Ayaw akong tantanan! It’s taking all of my energy, mala Keri Hilson. And I have to admit, it’s pulling me so far down now. Far far down, isang kanto mula sa far far away.

Last night, nanaginip ako. Someone was asking me to go abroad, treat lang, biglaan lang, and then when we were about to leave, wala daw akong passport, and other important papers! So, I had to sacrifice and let go of that big opportunity to leave the country. And I was crying in my sleep because I let it go, I had to let it go just like that because I was simply not prepared for it.

When I woke up, I thought about my dream LONG and HARD. Hindi bastos yung dream ko, at wet dream siya in the sense na na-wet ang pillows ko kakaiyak (or kakalaway?). So, nagisip ako how to relate it with my present life now. What if, that really happens, yung biglang may dumating na magandang opportunity tapos hindi ako handa, shall I let it go or grab it and learn during the process or shall I wait? Di ba, andaming nareraise na questions, parang exam lang.

Ang bongga lang how these dreams push us to wake up, and make a decision. How it allows us to experience things which would rattle our minds and make us think. And I know, lahat naman nakakaexperience ng mga ganitong klaseng panaginip, yung tipong paggising mo, you would feel fueled to do, to pursue your vision.

At ng dahil sa panaginip ko, nagphotoshoot ulit ako. Very relevant naman diba? Hahahaha. So ang panaginip ko ba naging model ako? Artista?

At ng email nako ke Anti Tyra Banks, na kunin nya ako sa latest cycle niya. Nag-email nadin ako sa ABS, GMA, pati TV5 na i-book nila ako sa mga shows na kelangan nila. I-pe-pursue ko na talaga to. Hahahaha. Why not. Pangarap ko to walang pakealamanan. CHaraught.

Eh, feeling ko lang wala ng point yung entry ko, so tatapusin ko na muna dito. Salamat sa nageffort magbasa.

<3lots,

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