Looking back into 2020, I would sum my year into 2 words: chaos and resilience. But as BTS said, yeaaaaah life goes on! So here it is, day one of another cycle. Half of me knows that it can still get worse, and that we’re not out of the woods yet. But on the other hand, there’s still this budding hope inside me, praying that this new year will give everyone the reset we all need. A fresh start, a renewed faith, brand new perspective and more importantly, healing from all the unthinkable things the year has brought upon.
Finally! Weekend off where I’m not on call! Himala ba to?
Since work was finally out of the picture, nagyaya akong lumabas just to do some walking and snap some pictures since my favourite season is here. Thankfully, we also have loads of country parks in our area so pasok sa vanga.
All the times we’ve been out since the ‘rents went home were mainly for errands so walang ka-effort effort plus you’re wearing mask all the time so wapakels sa appearance. This time, medyo umandar ata yung pagkababae ko so I wanted to put in a little effort.
Medyo nawindang ako sa choices ko lol. Bukod sa nageffort ako to ditch my specs at mag mook up, nag tuck-in din si ate ghorl. Kebs sa puson at bilbil hahaha. At ang kaloka sa lahat, nag shoulder bag pa talaga ako – take note with chained strap pa yan lol. Di ata pang walking sa kagubatan yung navisualise kong ganap lol. Sabik na sabik lang umaura?
Siyempre may mga arteng photoshoot keme pero diko na ipopost kasi nagexpire na yung confidence level ko kanina. Pero on a medyo serious note, ang sarap din nung feeling na you do something that makes you feel beautiful and confident. I mean alam ko naman na di ako kagandahan plus I’m the first one to always okray myself pero yung moments na bibitawan mo yung insecurities mo and just BE is so refreshing. It also helps na lampake yung mga tao dito. I chose to be carefree about some of my biggest insecurities – my kinky curly hair and ang protruding Chanda romero pero I didn’t get judging eyes or side comments about it. And it radiates pala talaga ano? How you feel inside. Sana mafeel ko to palagi. Iba yung saya pag na-hahappy ka sa sarili mo.