Aca-nthoughts

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Wow. It’s literally been a while. Where do I even begin?

As with everyone, it has been a very trying time. Physically, emotionally, mentally and all the other ‘ally’ I’m exhausted – quite sure we all were. There were days when I just lose it, and feel all of the exhaustion and frustration eat me up alive and the sadness that comes thinking of how horrible this whole ‘thing’ was for the world and I couldn’t empathise enough but all the tragedies aside, I am more appreciative of each day that I and my family, friends, colleagues wake up alive and well.

Theoretically, I felt like I had some sort of advantage because in my line of work, I somehow understood how it works and some of the basic concepts and I can easily cling to simple measures to avoid it. But with my family – Mama, Auntie and Uncle being here, I was such a nervous wreck. At one point, I was thinking I am just happy for them to be with me. See things that I long wished to share and experience with them. But then, as we all watched the whole situation and how the world took a step back, I literally had sleepless nights worrying over the possibilities of turning what would have been a fun vacation into a disaster. As usual, my ‘advance mag-isip‘ mindset sent me into deep well of anxiety because I just can’t bear the thought of being the one putting them at risk. It’s just so hard finding that balance, but little by little I think we made it work and found ways to make their vacation worthwhile.

Fast forward to 5 months later, I feel some sort of peace knowing that they’re finally back home (after a very disastrous journey of excess baggage and quarantine) and still, healthy (ish). I thought I would be fazed when we sent them off to the airport but that feeling when we got back home and had the house empty for the first time in months just had me weeping so bad. I miss that feeling of security, knowing they’re just around. I miss home cooked meals, our chores holiday and the feeling of going home and seeing people, especially my Mama who’s always so excited to see me.

I guess living away from them the past 6 years did teach me a lot about independence and responsibility but having them here even for a short period of time made me realise how much I miss having them around. How much I still yearn to be babied and not to do any adulting stuff at all. Ahhh I miss them.

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Aca-ganapan, Married Life

Farewell, 699.

6 years, 5 post codes.

Today, we surrendered our keys for 699. It was bittersweet because despite our short (11 months) stay, I would say it was one of the most memorable times of our married life. That small space was a witness to a lot of tears and struggles; a whole lot of laughter and random conversations; daydreaming and making plans for the future; discovering what we both want and how we both are; we also got to experience that sense of being mag-asawa to its truest form. We made it our own home and filled it with love, laughter, lots of music and of course, food. Haaay. Good times.

I will miss going home to 699 but, I am hoping to make similar happy and unforgettable memories in our new home. I now get why Holly (Hilary Duff) from The Perfect Man hated moving and kept yearning for a sense of home. Mahirap pala talaga. I think over the years when I was still back home in Pinas, we only ever moved once and that was for the long haul. Since I moved here in the UK, I’ve actually moved into 5 different addresses (1. Accomodation 2. Roselaine 3. 105 NP 4. 91 NP 5. 699 CD) already. And let me just tell you, nakakapagod. But yes, I am positive that this 6th and final move (not unless our plans change lol) will start a brand new exciting chapter into our lives. Also, this is another level of adulting so wish us luck! Taaaa!

A.

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#AdultingJoys

As I age, I no longer fancy the same things. As much as I want to keep exploring and fill my journal with amazing charrozcaldos, I just can’t always live with that hyped up lifestyle anymore. Hence, I discovered a whole new side of me perfectly contented inside the corners of my home, or keeping my turf as pleasant
as it could be! I’ve always been a homebuddy anyway but I think I took it to a whole new level now that I’m older. Here are some of my domesticated self discoveries, habits and guilty pleasures:

  • Ikea/any home shopping > outlet shopping
  • THREAD COUNT MATTERS
  • You can never have too many sheets.
  • Quality > quantity. Just because it’s cheap, doesn’t mean you have to buy it.
  • House must haves: scented candles, diffusers, spray
  • Grocery shopping is so therapeutic. I enjoy my mental computations on everything in my basket/trolley
  • Bleach puhleeeease. I’m on the OC side so I should always have this in stock. One down and upstairs.
  • Fire extinguishers and safety blanket
  • Costco black bags (with ties) are the best.
  • I always have at least 1 spare of each condiments (just in case we run out.)
  • At least 2 ice cream tubs or popsicles are required in the fridge in case of any emergency.
  • Fridge must have: Ice cubes
  • I love dipping everything in vinegar so  I have this pre-made mixture in a tin which has garlic and onions and pepper.
  • Medyo-secret stash: chocolate and gummy bears
  • For some reason, I prefer using the liquid detergent capsules than the powder. Idk but whateva
  • Sun dried clothes is love. Nothing can ever compare.
  • Invest in a high quality vacuum
  • Must have: FAN. Once I bought a cheap one but it just suddenly and literally collapsed on the floor and stopped working. I require a heavy duty one cause I use it even on winter.
  • Fridge must have: a bottle or 2 of wine.
  • One fully organised and labelled folder container for all the important files. Make sure it has a handle so in case of emergency, it’s less hassle.
  • Invest in quality knives and pots.
  • Fridge must have: japanese mayo!!!
  • It is cheaper to buy groceries at ALDI or LIDL than the rest of the big names!
  • Always have lemon. Always
  • Guilty pleasure: panties!!!

Time check: 00:28h! I should get some sleep by now cause I’m bank in the next few hours! I’ll catch up with you again later. Ta!

Xx

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